Intro to my blog

I have one of those lives that you see in the movies… and not the good ones where is all rainbows and sunshine and happy endings. No I have the one where the guy blows the girl off on Valentines’ day and she gets fired and escorted out of her work with no reason. The kind of movie where you think “wow I am glad I am not her”

Don’t worry this will not be a sob story of all the stupid stuff that happens to me. Instead I want to put my life out there to show how bad things happen to good people but you have to push on.

To start I should tell you a little about my past so you will understand why 2012 has to be a better year. LOL

I was finally diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis in Sept 2010 after suffering for 10 years without treatment. Every Doctor told me it was something else and no one did anything to help. I did have carpel tunnel surgery on both hands and had a bilateral tendon release done. (For those that don’t know what that is: basically you scrape off all the tissue off of the tendons so that you can bend your fingers without them getting stuck) This did help some but didn’t stop the progression of the RA. In September 2010 I started low dose chemotherapy. (Yes the same stuff you treat cancer with) I take 8 pills of Methotrexate once a week for the rest of my life. My hair started falling out but with the help of some great shampoo I am able to keep most of it attached to my head. Thank the Lord!

Also, I may have a little control issue in my life and unfortunately it has affected my health a ton. When I am struggling for control in one area of my life I tend to over control others as in my eating habits and workout habits. I have been known for most of my adult life to eat only one meal a day and then workout until I hurt myself. One doctor said I was basically an overweight anorexic… Casey can back me up on this cause it is her number one complaint about me but I am working on it.

I am also the queen for bad relationships. I am serious! From I guy that hit me, to guy that left my bed to go date another girl while claiming he was “going to teach at youth group” to a married guy who claimed to be separated from his wife and then she came back into the picture and he “just cant decide” between us to a guy who write me love letters claiming I am “The ONE” who is dating another girl and doesn’t understand why I cant be happy for him.

 I am starting this blog after some encouragement from my best friend Casey. I feel like it will be fun to reflect on the crap that I survive and honestly it will be fun just to purge it all out lol. I am not a perfect speller (I am dyslexic) and my grammar sucks. So read, enjoy and try not to sweat the small stuff.

Casey and Me :)