Today is exciting and nerve racking! I am filling out my application packet today for my first mission! As I going through all these pages I am reminded of all the negative things people have said to me about going on a mission. The one that hurts my heart the most is about my medical issues. I have RA. And the comment was with your RA what good can you bring a mission. As I fill out the medical question fears bubble up inside of me. What if they don’t let me go… What if there really isn't anything I can bring to help…What if what if what if. I am viewing this as a test of my faith. I should be confident that God will put me where I belong. He will provide and need to be strong, have faith, and be patient. Giving up control is really not my strong suit but God is working on my heart everyday. I know that He would not have put this on my heart and head a few months ago if it was not what He wanted me to do. Dear Lord I want to thank You for everything You have given me. I want to thank You for my servant's heart and thank You for showing me a path to use it to glorify You. I pray for continued strength as I am faced with all the negativeness of the world. Thank You for making me stronger. Amen ***PS-- A very special thank you for my first donation You know who you are and love you for your kindness***